Monday, April 28, 2008

Just can't knit...

Well, I finished Ariann and sewed on the buttons. Not the ones from Walmart. Tried Joanns and 7.50 later 4 buttons. But they were perfect. I haven't exercised in a week. I went to Las Vegas for my 21st anniversary. My oldest moved out, my mother in law died and the trip was just the worst ever. So, I can not knit. I showed my mother in law the sweater before I left and she touched it and smiled that I had done such a good job. She said so. She had just survived throat cancer surgery, so she could barely talk. She smiled and wrote alot. She meant more to me in the last 4 weeks of her life than she ever had in the 20 years I knew her. I spent 2 complete days with her after her surgery because she was afraid to die. She lit up every time I walked into the room. I saw her almost every day. I did her nails, I made her a shawl. I rubbed her legs so she would sleep. I hugged her and held her hand. As did my husband. He is a mess. He spent every day with her 4 and 5 hours at a time.Sometimes more.
We were assured she was fine and cancer would not kill her. We went on our vacation and she died while we were away. We found out from my daughter, who had to hear sympathy 2 days later when it was published in the paper! Cancer did not kill her ...she choked to death in front of 3 people who took her home to die. 3 people who did nothing to save her at all. A horrible way to die. Sorry if this is morbid, but I need to vent.

Thank you.
Ann

2 Comments:

Blogger Grace said...

ANn my deepest sympathies, on your loss, you are in my thoughts and prayers as is your MIL.

9:58 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh, Ann. I am so sorry to hear this, and especially how the ending was. How in the world???? The only silver lining I can find (do we really need the silver linings? sometimes, I think) is that you had four wonderful days with her and did some lovely things with her and for her.

8:39 PM  

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